I’m on a bit of a media roll at the moment and I can almost hear someone saying loudly, ‘... and that’s a wrap!‘ It feels like Theo and I have accomplished a huge task and it’s time to celebrate.
But wait, don’t go popping your corks yet. Well… maybe a couple! Being inducted into The Design Files world is pretty rewarding and something certainly to be celebrated. It’s just that underneath the facade, a strong undercurrent is always brewing.
In no way do I want to create a damper here but this site’s mission is to create awareness for the hellish ‘p’s’; Pelvic Pain, in particular Pudendal Neuralgia (PN) /Pudendal Nerve Entrapment (PNE) from my perspective (I know, I just used another word starting with ‘p’!). That means, good and/or bad, I’m going to post it here. So I’ll clarify now, this post is a very positive one. It’s about standing up, facing the world which requires courage, strength, being understood, supported, alot of struggle, and a damn load of management skills.
After completing our ‘Customising for Soula’ renovations, the search for treatments that I responded to, and deciding to attempt work with my home setup (and my super Theo), it felt like we began living life again instead of treading its waters. By no means can I rely on myself or get through the day without Theo’s help, nor am I sitting as I please or have a decent amount of mind stamina, but I can say, ‘I’m working’. I’m also creating. Now I believe I will achieve, I can do, make, plan, dine, create, think, walk, sit… all, sparingly, minimally and slowly, but I CAN. I have ability to plan a day with.
Theo and I had to remain realistic in our search for someone to portray our accomplishments, and had to expect that noone was going to understand PN. How was anyone going to describe it, how was anyone going to believe it by looking at me, by seeing our place? The considerations were many, after all the general consensus is if you can’t see pain, then it’s not there, a huge part of the pain battle. We asked ourselves if we risk the judgement, ‘yeah right sure she’s in pain‘, and then we thought about the horrific WorkSafe investigators!!!! That’s when we realised we had to go for it. And not only did The Design Files founder Lucy Feagins share our creativity on her brilliant blog, but her address and understanding of our space and lives couldn’t have been more spot on or more supportive of PN. It puzzled me that Lucy could understand it when others struggle so much. Continue Reading